Friday, January 22, 2010

Counting Down

Here it is, Friday, the 22nd of January, and so many things are coming to a head in the next few days. I'm getting a new phone/number over the weekend. Tuesday is my last day at work. It's also the release date for Mass Effect 2 in North America (Europe's got to wait three more days - Pfffft!). Next weekend we'll be loading our moving truck and easing on down to Florida.

I've moaned off and on about the ongoing troubles with my truck. I learned yesterday that all the little problems might be symptomatic of something that's too expensive to fix. We're going to replace one inexpensive component this weekend. If that has the desired effect, then I'll work on fixing all the little things that are wrong. If things don't work out, I'm going to ditch the truck and catch a plane to Tallahassee. I'd really love to have my own vehicle in my new place, but the odds don't favor that outcome.

In the midst of all the other stuff, I somehow forgot to blog about quitting my job. Pardon me, I resigned. That in itself has been a unique experience. In all my work history, I've never resigned before. I've quit, been laid off, and even fired a couple of times, but I've never formally resigned. No one's ever tried to make me stay someplace, either. Last Friday, the VP of Operations came by and tried to convince me to stay. I told her that I appreciated the effort, but this company lost my allegiance back when they told me I couldn't continue to work here if I transitioned. She didn't have an answer for that, and that was pretty much the end of the conversation.

I wish they had let me transition on the job. I'd be living en-femme pretty much full-time, and I'd have some basis for working that way when I get to Florida. As it is, I've got to pretty much start from scratch. I've been looking for a support structure in Florida, and I don't like what I see. There are plenty of groups and doctors and whatnot in the coastal cities, but next to nothing in the Panhandle, where I'll be. If anyone knows of something I haven't found, I'd be much obliged for the information.

Tuesday sees the release of Mass Effect 2. I've been jazzed ever since I posted the first trailer in June, after E3, but all the promotional material that Bioware have cranked out in the last month has just ramped up my personal tension. It's just a video game, I've heard people say, but those people haven't spent the last two years working through all the ins and outs of the first game, playing through all the possible permutations of how things could turn out. It turns out that all the decisions you make in the first game have consequences in the sequel, from how you treated your biggest fanboy to whether or not you participated in the genocide of an entire species. A blog I read a couple of months ago suggests that anyone who is enthusiastic about video games cannot be a woman. I have only rude things to say to that.

On the one hand, I hope the truck is fixable. If it's not, I get to fly for the first time in five years. What a trade!


  1. You were very brave doing that, Jaye...

    I do hope you get something fixed up soon... :-)

    Best wishes and hugs

  2. Brave yes and I have done that too, they only show any interest when you no longer want them! Strange how workers are rejected who would be good for a company while a load of useless types can get promoted!

    You were in a trap there not being yourself, lets hope you can find some freedom in Florida. Good luck.

    Caroline xxx

  3. I packed it all in and moved to Florida 30 years ago. I ended up in Key West, living in my van and working on shrimp trawlers. It was "interesting". Probably much more so 30 years ago and being in my 20's than it would be today. I don't recommend it.

    Best of luck with your truck and your move to Fla. Transportation would really be so much better to have.

  4. Hi Jaye,
    You're going to be missed here; I didn't relise you are planning to move so soon! I hope you have a safe trip and wish you the best for success in Florida.

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  6. Hey, congrats on resigning from your job. That took guts. I'm sorry they didn't allow you to transition, though, as I know that would have been better.

    Some internet searches turned up these possible resources for the Tallahassee area (sorry if any of these are repeats from your own research):

    - The Family Tree: Tallahassee's LGBT Community Center (; - a group called Transgender Tallahassee uses the meeting space there, and they also offer referral services

    - Panhandle Transgendered Alliance (PANTRA), PO Box 3426, Tallahassee, FL 32315 (hard to confirm this group's still active, though)

    Hope I get to see ya before you go!